Art and future (blogs 4 and 5)
When I was a child, I had never imagined that I
would be an artist. I really wanted to be a Preschool Teacher. Yeah, I know. I
remember that I admired my teachers so much and that I wanted to wear a green
apron like them someday.
But when I started to study that career at the
Catholic University in 2017, I realized that the study environment was too
competitive, and in addition to that I also crossed over a difficult moment, I
was depressive and anxious, so I preferred to take care of myself and resigned
the career.
After that, I took a year meanwhile I was deciding
what career was the best for me. I evaluated studying architecture, design, or
arts, but I really wanted to enjoy the process of studying more than the future
money or stability.
So far, I’ve had a great experience studying
Visual Arts until now. At first, I was very insecure. Every time I saw my classmates’
artworks, I felt no jealousy, but I felt so inferior, because I did not have as
much experience as most of them.
As time went by, I realized that I had learnt a
lot of new things, like theory and techniques that I never thought I would have
learnt. But the best lesson I have learnt throughout this process is that the
art is so important because it’s an effective tool that helps us to communicate
those things that are hard to process inside ourselves.
Maybe that’s why I like modern art so much, especially
expressionism and impressionism, but I must admit I also enjoy landscape art a
lot. I think my favorites artists are Van Gogh and Turner, and my favorites artworks from each of them
are Wheat Field with Cypresses and Vesuvius in Eruption, respectively.
Both are landscapes but they are so different in
their shapes and colors, nonetheless they are very deep and reflect innovative
thinking that inspires me to create and experiment with painting, photography,
and edition, which I have specialized over the career.
In these days I have started thinking a lot
about the future and what is that I wish to do with this knowledge, and
considering my liking for teaching, maybe studying pedagogy is a good option to
contribute to the world. The art is a skill, a mean to transmit and evoke
feelings and emotions. Maybe I can help other people to develop this skill, but
I’m not sure. It’s hard to me visualizing myself working for someone else, like
an institution, and much less indoors every day.
I want the freedom to decide whatever I want to
do when I wake up. I want to travel a lot to new landscapes to paint and photograph.
I want to feel the emotion for learning and progressing. I want to meet a lot
of great people that motivate and inspire me. I want to discover myself and
nurture my soul to find my place in the world.
I’m not sure about what I’m going to do in the
future, and I don’t want to worry about it. Who knows, maybe I’ll work as a
freelancer or I’ll end up being a teacher after all.
Right now, I just want to enjoy the moment that
I am living.
(I wrote
this post putting together the requirements for blogs 4 and 5. Sorry for the
delay, I've had a busy few week for the move.)
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